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Hello again after a looong time friends! I have long ago stopped sharing my reasons for sudden hiatuses (after all, my blog, my space, my rules), but just this once, I am excited to actually write up a full blog post about why exactly I have been away for so long.
And the reason is this: after a whole year of careful planning and preparing, I have finally moved to Canada for my graduate studies! 🥳
Continue reading “Life Updates: Moving To A New Country, Grad Studies, And Lots Of Angry Geese”
After months of disappearing, I am back (again) and super excited to start sharing posts in this tiny little corner of the internet that I own. The past four months have been pretty crazy–2023 started off on a bad note for me, what with my father having a stroke on the very first day of the year.Â
Continue reading “Return From Hiatus + Updates And Confessions”The past year while I tried to learn how to balance my work life with my personal life, I watched my sister practice something that she referred to as “manifesting”. Now, I am no expert on the topic, but from what I understood the gist of it was this: if you truly believe with every fiber of your being that good things are coming your way, then the universe will align itself to make it happen for you.
Continue reading “Hello 2022: We’re Gonna Be Just Fine!”It’s good to be back (again).
I had a rough start to this year, so I really needed the break. I won’t lie, I always feel strangely guilty whenever I take a break from blogging. It feels almost sacrilege, which is absurd because this is just a blog. This is just my own tiny bubble on the internet, where I feel almost completely at ease to share whatever is on my mind. There is a comfort in knowing that I can express my thoughts freely from behind a screen, where no one who knows me in real life would try to interpret the meaning of my words just so they can fit me in the narrative they’ve written for me.
That sounds harsher than I intended it to. What I really mean is that when you interact with someone in person, you form an impression of them. And even if your first impressions are not your lasting impressions, you will still unconsciously try to fit them in a stereotype, or at the very least you will unintentionally put labels on them, for no other reason than it helps you make sense of that person better. We are all guilty of this to some extent, but here, on this blog, I don’t have to be afraid of being labelled. Of being finite.
I have personal issues with being labelled, but that’s a story for later.
As I was saying—I was meaning to return to blogging in January and then in February, but given how things were going for me I realized that It just wasn’t the right time yet. One of the most important lessons I learned last year is prioritizing. This year, after losing a friend, after watching my father’s health deteriorate day by day (and realizing that part of his carelessness about his own health is because of his mental health issues), opening a bakery which comes with its own equal share of excitement and stress, starting my final year at university, dealing with my own mental health, and a million other things…yeah blogging was not my priority.
Looking back at my younger self though, I have to admit, I am doing much better than I have had in years. Despite everything, I am coping, and definitely knowing what needs to be done first has helped me a lot.
I guess what I am trying to say is that if you are reading this, and you are disappointed in yourself for not being able to follow whatever plans you have set for yourself to the dot—then take a deep breath and stop. You don’t have to do everything at once. Just focus on what’s truly important, and try to choose something that brings you joy. Best of luck. You got this.
(Let’s pretend it’s Sunday okay?)
I am not quite sure how long I am going to go on with this vanishing and reappearing act on my blog, but here I am reappearing after vanishing for the entire month of October. Anyway, here’s a quick wrap of of the first week of November for me: